I lost me.



Sunday, January 31, 2010 | 8:37 AM
I WANT TO KILL PEOPLE NOW. I. MEAN. IT. PCB !!!!!!

I have nothing to write anymore.



Friday, January 29, 2010 | 3:24 PM
Untitled.

Break again today. I dont know what you want. I dont understand why. I'm beginning to feel tired.

Why .. ???



Thursday, January 28, 2010 | 8:58 PM
Happy 16th Birthday Shawn!

Patched up with Baby last night. We really must be clear on what we really want and what we can promise each other and also do it. Promises are meant to be kept, aren't they?

Detention today, I wanted to wait for Baby outside his school today but didnt have the chance 'cuz of my stupid detention. DM say late one more time and it's in house suspension. LOLLLLL.

After school, went to find Zimin, Daryl & Weijun @ 107 coffeeshop. Eat my fishball noodle, and blablabla. MarcusL and Yutong came, slacked awhile more with them, then headed off to detention with Dehan.

After detention, walked out of school and saw Ivan. Chatted for awhile, then saw Joshua and co. Hahaha he want come back school. -.- Good luck to you man. Dont forget we change principal and vice principal liao. :D

Headed to coffeeshop with Zimin and she went to find her laogong. Slacked awhile @ Joshua's table. Walked off with Jiaxin, Jiankuo & Zimin.

Bused over to 433 to find Baby, Shawn, Benny & Hayden. Michelle, Samion and Junhao came down too.

Slacked till 8 plus and home I go. :)



Wednesday, January 27, 2010 | 9:13 PM
History

I don't understand why you have to keep digging out the past yeah. I hate it.

Break up today. So ?



Tuesday, January 26, 2010 | 9:35 PM
Shooting Star



Yesssss, I saw a shooting star today with Baby & Shawn!!!! :D :D :D I cant believe it, I know I know, very sua ku. BUT THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I SEE A SHOOTING STAR. IT WENT SO FAASSSSTT.

ZOOOOOOOOM !!!!! And byebye it's gone.

Shawn was the first to discover it. He was like, "Eh! Shooting star!"

The next moment you see three people with their heads bent down and hand cupped over their foreheads.

Of course we made wishes, who wouldnt when you see a shooting stars? :D Right right right?????

I can't believe I'm sooooooo lucky. Only Benny wasn't interested in it yea. Hahaha.

Anyway, let's start from the beginning of today. Skip the school part .........

Went to wait for Baby @ my school there. Benny, Lenny (?) was there too. Then go to the massage place 'cuz Baby's wrist is injured. After that cabbed to his house, Baby changed clothes and blaaaaaa, and we go to Benny's house.

Benny's turn to change clothes, then saw Anthony @ his house downstairs O.O. LRT to Rivervale Plaza, meet Shawn. Go Koufu eat, then to the fishing place Baby and Shawn always fish at.

Go there see the "coffin". In the end we got mosquitoes kisses and the casket was a fake. It's made of styrofoam. .___. Shawn bloody scared me when I went into the jungle. I thought got ghost. Nabeiiiiiii. But funny lah, hahaha. XD

Went to burn ants due to our depression acting up again, cant make it. The ant colony veli scary I tell you. You kill their brothers they will come back and carry their brothers' bodies. Dont know is go bury them or go eat them. But who cares.

Sat by the usual fishing place, the tide is high today. Baby and Shawn got this crazy urge to fish. But thank God there's school tomorrow. The lake looks dangerous to me. :(

Saw a shooting star, it's incredibly cooolllll. It's really a once-in-a-lifetime-then-you-get-to-see-it kind of thing.

In touch with nature today, I'm gonna stop my habit of stepping on grass. :)




Monday, January 25, 2010 | 7:00 PM
Happy birthday to you bro! :)






Omgg. I can't believe itttttttt :D You can never guess how many people who reads my blog comes up to me either face-to-face or MSN telling me I'm right by telling Jiankuo the truth.

Joycelyn! It isnt entirely your fault, everyone do wrong things. I do wrong things too. No one do correct things all the time. I'm angry at you because you're not even abit remorseful about what you did. You didnt even bother to apologise.
Which is a waste.

And yeah, we both bitch lor. It takes a bitch to know another one is a bitch yea. 'Cuz we're the "same species".
Yeah, your blog is right. No point going on a blog war with you. Haha, laugh my ass out.

P/S : You have no idea how many people are disgusted by your behaviour. :) You're right, this problem is solved. I'm abit sad to lose you as a friend. Now that I think of the past, but whatever. I wont treasure someone who dont know how to treasure others. :)

Now back to reality. School today. Was late for the 4th time. :( Although I got detention, I'm still proud of myself. I was late every single day for the past years I've been in this school. But guess what, this year, I'm only late for 4 times. Happy much! :D

Lessons are boring, it's the same everyday. Mr VJ is being unreasonable. Argued with him over lame things.

Served detention after school and home sweet home. Baby & me bought a wallet for my brother although I didnt go choose with Baby 'cuz I was still serving my stupid detention in school.
Baby went up to my house with dearest Hayden to pass my brother his present but too bad he's not in. I forgot he went out to celebrate with his friends. :/

Home @ 6 plus going 7PM. Home especially early today just for my brother. It's to make him happy. :)

Happy 13th Birthday to you my dear bro. I love die you. You're my family, the one and only brother I have in my whole life. Treasure the present we bought for you. Study hard okeh!

Didnt meet baby today. He went for his muaythai training. Too bad. Ohya, I'll reply tags on my blog, just like last year. People continue tagging on my blog aites! Love you all sunshines. :)
Tag's Replies.
xiiaosneeze: Hi sneeze! :D Meet up soon okeh! Luvluv. Remember contact me. :)
Joycelyn: Think about the answer yourself.
Heather: You're?
Michelle: I love die you too my dear!!!! Omg, I must seriously stop spending time with MarcusA liao. Must pei my second boyfriend. :)
Hayden: He don't allow I go bite him ah!! :D You're having muaythai training with MarcusA right now. Is the training there tough?
Yuxiang: Heh heh heh, tag more lah. See you in school dear friend!! :)
Afrina: Thanks babe. <:
Shane: Just text me okay? ^^ Misses.
Shipei: Relinked. :)
Samion: Hahaha! Been so long since we keep in touch le. Must study hard!!!
Jocelyn: Thank you. :) Yeah all the best to you too. Gees. :B
MichelleX: Big eye!!! Your eye veli veli big. I veli veli jealous laaaaah. See you around soon. :)



Sunday, January 24, 2010 | 9:56 AM
Fishinggggggg.

I'm dead tired man! So.. yesterday me and Baby and Shawn went fishing, again. Obviously I never fish lah. I also dont know how to. -.-

Anyway, only Baby fish. Last week, it was Baby and Shawn fishing together. And nothing went wrong.

But this week, my stupid baby fall down and almost drop into the water. So dumb right??????? Bo bian, he is Marcus Ang. Not Superman. :D

I stayed there till 1130 and bused home already. Home @ 12plusplus. Baby went home today morning @ 10plusplus.

Talking to Baby on the phone now. Poor baby, never sleep at all for so long. Later he still need to do finish his homework. MUAHAHAHAHAHA. Who ask him dont want to do it last time? Now need do detention. Stupid himmmmmm.

TOMORROW IS MY BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!! HEEHEE, SO HAPPY. OFFICIALLY TURNING 13 ALREADY. Sibei happy for him. ^_^

Later going Grandparents' house. BYEBYEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Peektures tomorrow 'cuz I lazy upload now.



Friday, January 22, 2010 | 8:15 PM
Valentines' Day is not too far away.

I know there's many things that are not your fault, and not what you want it to be. But don't forget that those wrongs are not my fault too. I dont want all this to happen and we both just cant help it. This is life. Full of ups and downs.

OHHHHHH. I remember why I want post already.

Joycelyn ah. I dont know if you'll see my blog. But I still want to say this.

If you're a true friend, you wont say that of Jiankuo. If you're a true friend, you won't call Jiankuo stupid. If you're a true friend, you will try to apologise for what you did.

The fact is that you really said Jiankuo is stupid. You really did say that you're "naturally smart" while Jiankuo have to "study real hard to be smart".

Tell me earthlings, is there any wrong for a person to study hard for his/her own future? It's funny, the way you, me and Siewchin used to dislike Shayne because she used to go around showing off her results.

But you're doing it now! Talking behind Jiankuo's back. Super bitchy yea. If you ask me. Just how many times have you talked behind someone's back? I can't take this lying down y'know.

If someone is to badmouth Siewchin, can you just sit there and do nothing? What will you do? Sit there, nod your head, and agree with what those people are saying? I thought we were best friends.

I have my wrongs too. And my wrong is to tell Jiankuo what you people said about him in KFC last year. But I told Jiankuo the truth. I dont want my friend to befriend with a bunch of people who badmouth him.

He's innocent. You guys aren't. Carry on talking behind other people's back. Carry on gossiping.

I dont mind losing friends like you guys. 'Cuz what's the point of being friends when I know one day you people might just badmouth me and I still stupidly treat you guys as my best friends?

So yeah Joycelyn, after I type so much, I suddenly realise it might not be your fault for badmouthing Jiankuo.

It's his fault for trusting you guys that you all wont do such things to him.

Trust no man, fear no bitches.



Friday, January 15, 2010 | 10:29 PM
No mood .

I'm sad. I think I finally woke up. Changing and doing all this for you aint worth it. I'm not supposed to change. I'm who I am. And not who you want me to be.

[EDIT]
They say ..
it takes a minute to find a special person,
an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them,
but an entire life to forget them.

Love without complains? Love? Ha. Why dont you tell me what it is.

[/EDIT]



Wednesday, January 13, 2010 | 9:04 PM
I can never get it back again.

I dont know what to do today when Baby suddenly become so quiet and ignored me. It bothers me to see him like this. And not knowing why he suddenly became so cold, I became scared, naturally.

Trying to cheer him up with my toys but it didnt work. Now that I know the reason why, I'm sad and speechless too. Can you just forget about what happen? It's irritating. I hate it.

After school, I went to Compass Point to find Baby. Dabao Mac while Baby dabao Burger King. Headed to Baby's home aftermath, had our lunch and then watched TV. Hear some songs, singing along with it.

Happy with what I have. But there's something missing.

It just dont feel right everytime.



Tuesday, January 12, 2010 | 7:41 PM
Study is tiring.

I tried to stay awake in all lessons, and I think I did it. :) Happy for myself, heh. :B Study is really tiring 'know. You have to absorb what those teachers are saying, and when you don't understand, those teachers dont seem to know what they're talking about either.

I mean like, weird much? Raaahs neverminds. I dont like my Chinese teacher yea. She likes to blames others for her wrongs. Sometimes it's really here fault but she still speaks around the bush as if she's the one really hurt. Hate her ttm. :)

Ohoh, I did my homeworks this year! Too bad for those teachers who didnt get to see the improvement I made 'cuz I drop to NA. But I'm really proud of myself because I made an effort this year. Heees :D

Had Maths remedial after school. Not too bad, I managed to understand what I'm doing, but NOT what Mr VJ is teaching. He wrote all those nonsense on whiteboards but he looks like he memorised those before coming to our class as he cant really answer the questions my classmates asks him.

Went library to borrow books (YESS!). Baby cabbed to my school outside, finally he came to fetch me. Happy yea. :D

Saw JianKuo and MarcusL outside school, MarcusL left us there and Yuxiang, Jiankuo, me, and Baby walked all the way to the bus stop. Me and Baby board the bus while Jiankuo and Yuxiang walked home.

Baby slept right away when he reached home. Lazybum <: Leaving me bored ttm. Left his house @ 6 plus as I promised my mum I'll be home early today. Reached home before 7PM.

Get well soon baobao, you'll feel better tomorrow. Trust me, okeh? Love you many.




Monday, January 11, 2010 | 9:11 PM
It sucks.

Okay, i today first time never late. I really got chiong go school leh! Proud of myself. Baby is proud of me toooooo. :D Getting on well with schoolwork. But, I dont like MISS GRACE. She should change her teaching style, like seriously.

I already told her she speak too fast, but she replied me with a "we no time already. this is supposed to be done last week." Yea, I understand that we're really lacking of time. But HELLO, we also need to understand what she's saying right!

She speaks like there's no tomorrow. -.- Really hope she can slow down her speed in talking English yea.

After school, went to find Baby. As usual I was lost. Hmmm. Not surprising.

BUT I SAW MY SAVIOUR !!!! :D :D :D

I was really stuck at Sengkang LRT for like idk how long, then I was like walking circles then I saw JUNHAO. OMGOMG. MY SAVIOUR. He was going to PeiHwa, which is also my Baby's school, to collect his O level result.

We went to his school tgt, and I waited outside for Baby. Heees, then saw Beauford and the rest. I long long time never see Beauford le. Lols. I SAW PEILIN TOO !!!! Hahaha, so co-incidence.

Lunch @ Koufu, then LRT over to Compass with baby and Guowei. Guowei left us there, then we saw Ahdai (?), baby's friend at the LRT too. LRT over to Rivervale there to meet Shawn. Saw Peilin, AGAIN!! Hahaha.

AND I SAW MY DEARDEAR SISSY JILLIAN YEA. :D Jackie and others too. :)

Cabbed to Baby's house, slacked till 8 plus. Home before 9PM. YESSSS. :D

Aww, and tomorrow I'm starting supplementary classes le. MUST STUDY HARD! So that I can have a better life next time. For the sake of my children, I MUST do it.

So work hard Baby! We must give Javier and Shanice a good life next time. :D Gonna go do my homework nowwwwwwww. Love you baby. ^.^ v



Sunday, January 10, 2010 | 10:13 PM
Study

Today baby came my house to study. Did homework and stuffs. Compass point for Burger King next with his Shawn and one of his friends, Benny.

Home @ 9 plus as Baby went home himself when I was in the Hougang Point's toilet. Where got such boyfriend. -.-

Neverminds, love you baby.



Saturday, January 9, 2010 | 2:12 PM
CIP.

Yesterday I didn't post yea.

Yesterday: Went school, late again. Like everyday lor please -.- Must change change change! Then, spot check for latecomers. Blaaaaaaaas. After school went to meet Baby @ Hougang Point. Then up to his house have lunch. Watch TV. Stayed there till around 9PM.

Today, went for CIP early in the morning. Heh, must earn more CIP wor. Then then then, walked around ask ppl donate lor. Some very what sia. Shoo me away! Arbo is they donate 20cents. HA. Cute yea.

My groupmates also very cute. We dont know how to go to our Litte India. Then we take 147, went past YC's house. Hahaha, then stop at wrong stop! Wtf. Walked all the way to Mustafa there.

Then collect money, then we all very hungry. And we got lost again. O.O Dontknow how they walk one, in the end we walked to Bugis :D

Had KFC, then we dont know how to go back. 'Cuz no 147. Hmmm . Lols. So, I'm not the worst road blind. Hehe. :D :D

Had to cab back in the end to school. I fell asleep. Hahaha, weather too sexy, making me tired. Went back school, and we're the last class. Ha, no choice. Who ask the school dont want provide us with transport? Neh ni neh ni poo poo.

Bus-ed home, baby didnt come and fetch me today. He say he will but he didnt. Nevermind, I know he's tireddddddd. :D

So now .. I have to rush go bathe 'cuz I'm meeting Licheng and co. @ AMK Hub. ^^ I lack of pictures. But I dont want upload me and baby's pictures. I look too ugly. XD

BYEBYE. Baby sleep tight. I think you at night then wake up :(



Thursday, January 7, 2010 | 10:07 PM
Heehee. I kept my promise! :D

Went school today, boring. I wanted to read many many books. In the end the stupid library close cuz got dont know what meeting inside. See lah, cant even be good girl read books. >:

Then then .. went to meet Chinteng @ Compass. Ohya, and her boyfriend. Also call Marcus. LOL! Walked over to Rivervale Plaza, cuz there's simply nothing for us to do @ Compass. Walked all the way to Plaza.

Future Park next to slack. Then took LRT to find Baby. Shun bian see can meet until Michelle anot.

And I ran all the way there cuz I thought I was late! Damnit, in the end I'm just on time. So proud of myself. LOLS :P

I saw Michelle! She so surprised hahaha omg. :D :D

Cabbed to baby's house and then I copied Bio notes from the notes Angeline lend me. I was sleeping all the way during Bio. Omg lah, so boring I tell you.

Home @ 8 plus. Ohya, me and Baby changed phone. But we didnt change back the SIM card. Which means Baby is using my SIM card, and I'm using his! HAHAHAHAHA. Lame. I know. :B

Goodnight baby. ^^ I love you.



Wednesday, January 6, 2010 | 12:31 PM
Happy Belated 6th Monthsary.

Happy Belated 6th Monthsary to dearest, <3

Heehee, 'm very happy that we can actually go up this far. Haha, quite surprising. ^.^v LOLS.

Gave school a miss today. My eye is swollen. :( For no reason too, fucked up. Been with Baby and Michelle this few days. Study study study. I really must study, I want to score enough points for my N' this year.

So jiayou to me, Baby and Michelle!! Not forgetting Samion, MarcusL and others. ^^

Okay, have to make this a quick one. This post sure alot craps one -.-

Gotta go bathe now. 'M late.

I love you alot alot, well you should know this. So it's kinda boring to keep saying this over and over again. Sorry that I'm always giving you troubles. (See see, now you're messaging me and telling me that you're praying to all gods that I won't get lost later. The silliest idiot is you okay. Naggy.)

You didnt give me the happiest memory. You didnt give me the love I've dreamt of wanting when I was young. You're stubborn. You're unreasonable at times. You care about everything I do. You're too strict on me.

You always want your girlfriend to take the blame for the wrongs you've done. You dont apologise. You have moodswings, you have a very bad temper. But I still love you. I love you because you're imperfect. No one's perfect. Neither am I.

We quarrel many times, big things, small things. We can almost quarrel about anything. But one of us always ended up giving in. We avoid making each other sad and angry. Because we dont want and dont like to see either of us sad. We have many misunderstandings.

But I'm always happy whenever I'm with you. I've grown up. I'm not the past young little girl who doesn't know how to love but claims that I'm in love. I'm positive that this time I'm in love. You made me grow up. You made me matured. I aint the same girl with a very childish mindset of love.

I and you, we don't betray each other. We try to make each other as happy as possible. You make me smile whenever I'm sad. I can never be possibly be angry at you when you're cracking a joke.

You're what makes me happy. And I dont want to send my happiness away. I want to hold on to it as long as I can. I believe we will treasure each other. I believe in love now. :) It's only 6 months together with you, beware y'know. There's more to come. ^^

OKAY I SPENT LIKE IDK HOW LONG TO CRACK MY BRAIN JUST FOR THIS POST. 'M REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LATE NOW. DAMNIT.

I love you baby! Muacks.



Sunday, January 3, 2010 | 9:19 PM
3hours more.

3 hours, just 3 hours more and it'll be me and baby's 6 months tgt. :D Heehee.

Didnt go anywhere today. I swear the weather super sexy. Hawt like siao. At home on air con is complete SHIOK man. :B

Played some lame games online cuz there's simply nothing better for me to do.

Chatted with baby on the phone, talked to Yx and many others on MSN, blablabla.

Boring yet happy day. Becuz baby made me happy today. ^.^v



Saturday, January 2, 2010 | 9:28 PM
Going crazy.

I dont know what I'm doing. Bye world.

Why is this even happening to me.



Friday, January 1, 2010 | 5:23 PM
Goodbye 2009, welcome 2010.

2009 wasnt a really good year for me, 2008 was better. But still, we have to live on yea? I cant be stuck in 2008 forever. -.-

So, a Happy New Year to everyone! I believe 2010 will be a better year for me! :D Hees.

Spent last day of 2009 with baby and friends. :B As said on previous post, me, Baby, Shawn and baby's mummy went to Tampines Safra to have our lunch. Then thennnn, we headed to watch Bodyguards & Assasins. The show is fking touching bodoh.

Baby, me and Shawn then headed to Sengkang while Aunty went back Hougang to shop. Up to Shawn's house. Then Rivervale mall to find Sylester they all.

Right on 12AM there were fireworks ^.^v Pretty, watched it with baby. Conflicts with family after that. Hmmmmmmmm.

Baby's house to sleep after that. Woke up around 12 plus. Bathed and all. Back home by 5pm. Tiring dayyyyyyyy.







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