I lost me.



Tuesday, March 31, 2009 | 7:57 PM
"With sorrow, with joy, with you even ordinary is meaningful.
Sweet and comfortable, that kind of feeling is just you." -Givan.


Blog because Wilson asked me to. Hehe.

Hais, knew something I shouldn't knew, AGAIN! What the hell. Break my heart when I hear this. Why why why.

I couldn't concentrate on what I was doing right at the moment. Guess I was wrong. Wrong about my own jugdement. I should just pretend I hear nothing. Come on, it's nothing. Fuck this.

Siew Chin, you so bad you know. You save money for my child, ofc you got gain la. You gain a healthy god-son you know! Haha. Yea, I won't open a private blog. Write here can alr. And you also know my memory what.

Have so many blogs also no use, the psw I sure forget. Haha. :D :D :D

Okay, Joycelyn, Elton and I went to pei Joycelyn to find her boyfr @ Ave8. They ate Mac while I only ate Apple Pie. Because I want to eat KFC and not Mac!!! ><

Lyn's boyfr very weird. Really very weird. Think me and him cant communicate well. HAHAHA. Thanks so much Senior! Heng he graduate alr, or else STC I die alr!!! Saded.

Went 433 next with Elton and JianKuo. Wilson went home first. Then, tried to fold paper cranes there. I'm such a failure. I don't know how to fold despite those hours in school that my friends have been trying to teach me.

JianKuo even said he wants to vomit blood! Jane looks like she's gonna give up on me. YuTong is better, she got ABIT more patience then JianKuo. But even after so many hours, I still cant fold one single crane.

Failure right? I think so too. But I keep thinking of SiewChin, 'cause YuTong said that if I want her well fast, must think good thing.

But as you know, my mind very corrupted, so yea... Haha.

Okay shall go and continue talk to Wilson and Elton in MSN. Bye peeps. Love ya. Muacks.



Monday, March 30, 2009 | 7:24 PM
HELP ME.

My head is throbbing with pain right now. How how how ? All thanks to Wilson la! Talk to him then I look up then too much Sun then my head become very pain. HAHAHAHA.

Okay, today nothing very interesting happen. Have also won't blog down. I'm gonna create a private blog where no one knows the link and then post every single thing inside. Should I do that? I think I should. In here, I can't write this, can't write that.

Then what's the point of having a blog ?

Anw, went for 0.22 Revolver Dry practice. Was fun.[: Then, went home since no one pei me go 433 to play with Jesse and China.): Miss them miss them miss them!

Wanted to go by myself in the end, but I cant tahan the pain that was in my head. So I went home. Till now, head still pain. No, is fucking pain. Need some painkillers soon. Fuck.

Okay, reply tags here. Because tagboard too many liao. Don't know how to reply there. Sorry guys for the inconvenience blablablabla.

Tag's reply.

Desmond: Imissyou la Desmond. When meeting up?
Elton: You all go home liao how to tell? Haha.
Teng: Hi cutecuteeee.
Joycelyn: Ofc I not preg, I boliao anyhow post.
Samantha: Thanks for passing by. Hehe.
Yining: Tag more tag moree !
JiaHao: Okay best sister. <3>
Siewchin: I dont care wor, you how can like that one. Save money but dont want spend on my child. ): Haha.
Samantha: Sister don't so angry. Everything over le. Just relax. Breathe. Rmb to breathe! Haha.
Joycelyn: I'm starting to think positive because SC thinking positive le! Finally. Haha.
JiaHao: Best sister.<3>
SiewChin: Anyhow! Haha. I won't check le la. I'm glad you came to your senses. Just concentrate on getting your health back. After your health is back and you still want that guy, I'll think of ways to let him back to you again. But it all depends on fate. Fate you know ? Fate.



Sunday, March 29, 2009 | 6:31 PM
BASTARD

This is the second post of today.*

Guys are bastard. SiewChin called me just now crying helplessly. I couldn't control myself. I really feel like scolding every vulgarities I could think of and display those inhuman acts on the bastard that had hurt her so badly.

Every guy is the same. They always say, I love you. When they don't really mean it. They say forever, when they really meant the end. Then what for saying all this to a girl? What for giving a girl hope when they know that in the end nothing fruitful will come out of their relationship ?

I want to whack someone so badly, so badly that I could punch the wall right now. Too bad, I can't. I really feel like pulling his penis out if I ever need to. I hate this guy. I hate this guy. I HATE THIS GUY!

Hais. I really don't know. Guys are mean creatures. I hate guys. They sucks. I'm beginning not to trust them anymore. Even my own boyfriend. So what if he sees this and feels unhappy? This is my blog and I'm hopping mad right now.

SiewChin said so much to me just now. Was really surprised to see her number up in my caller ID. Really feel like rushing over to hug her and tell her everything is gonna be alright.

Friends from Serangoon Sec please contact me asap. I need your help. Thanks.

Oh yea, SiewChin. My baby haven't even born yet okay. I hope when you saw him/her, you'll be okay already. I want you to be her god-mum! :D



| 10:34 AM
Not sure about you, not sure about everything.

Kay, what should I write here? O.o Typing in one hand because I'm eating "Meiji's strawberry stick" You know, the "YANYAN"? The one that got a stick and you have to dip it in starwberry cream.

So forgive me if I have any typo errors yea.

Yesterday, 28/03/2009. Saturday.
Thought my Sat was ruined, because Papa don't allow me go out as my house was being painted again by those painters Papa hired. -.- Somemore he say I ytd faint, so wasn't in a good shape to go out. SAD AR!

But thanks to my mouth, I managed to persuade him by saying I'm alright. So yes! I'm able to go out, BUT is after those painters paint finish. Oh well.

So those painters paint till I don't know what time. 'Cause I was sleeping and in the meantime, talking to Ang Junwei. I mean, I was talking to Ang Junwei and then after that I went to sleep.

Slept till 4 plus, went to take a shower. Took my own sweet time time and by the time I reahed YuanCheong house was already 6.15. Bought cookies for his lil bro. Yes he actually wanted it. Haha.

Slacked at his house till 8 plus, then went to his house downstairs to slack with his friends. All I don't know one. Zz. Anw, there's a night market near his house. Haha. Looks boring but it's a long time since I last saw one near my house yea?

Okay, so after that saw his friends at their so called "usual slacking place" right outside the prata shop. YuanCheong said he was hungry so off I pei-ed him to eat at a nearby coffeeshop.[:

Oh yea, I rmb-ed something. I played till his spoon drop. Oh Gosh his stare was like going to kill me like that. So sorry for that. D; He even said I have bad table manners. O.o

Anw, he ate finish and off he went to find his friends again. Went home shortly after that.

Reached home thought can sleep but in the end was trapped outside the house! My parents and lil bro went to Ave8 Mac's which is at my house downstairs. But I lazy go find them so I didn't went down.

My maid was bathing so I was all alone out there. Fuck. -'- Called Ang Junwei chit chat abit then YES my maid bathe finish le. Bathe, ate my dinner, tried calling YuanCheong but he didn't pick up his call.

Hope he is sleeping soundly.[: End of my day yesterday. It sure was a tiring day for me. :/

I love Lim YuanCheong. Muacks.

Today, 19/03/2009. Sunday.
Woke up @ 9 plus in the morning. I've been having very bad sleeps this few nights! Keep waking up for nothing every 50 mins. Fuck sia. My health hasn't been good lately. Pray hard for me yea? Shall post words and pictures later.

Ciaos!



Friday, March 27, 2009 | 7:18 PM
Discover yourself by getting lost.

A big thank you to my good friend, H. Really. Thanks for the post in your blog. Takecare of yourself too. I know it's been hard on you, it's been hard for everyone. We feel the pain because we've grown up.

H, come back to school soon. Don't keep taking MC. Or else you'll be the last in class! Take care my dear friend.[:

Other then H which I really want to see in school soon, I also want SC to come back school soon too.

School was quite okay for me. Friends from other classes have been asking me whether I'm alright. They say I looked emo and I looked sad? Hais. I don't know. It's true that I'm sad, because of personal things and also because of friends.

Well, enough of this.

Saw YuanXin from Peicai Sec after school today.[: Went to the pet shop to see dogggies. They're all so cute! Suddenly make me think of SiewChin because I rmb-ed we buried a hamster in school 2 years ago.

There're so many memories. Hais. Anw, went back school as I was running late for my NPCC training. Today was the Speech Day rehearsal. Wasn't really fun because it was fucking hot. But I can't complain because if for me it's tough, what about the others? It's tough on them too.

Fainted, as what my friends say. Asked Thina how I faint, and she said I just drop down and Ginna Tan and Winnie caught me in time. Gina Peh holded me to sit down.

Funny thing is, I can't remember.

Fuck fook fuck. Don't know what is happening to me. I'm a mum of a five months old baby inside me. Kidding.

Thank you friends who supported me when I was falling down. When will my personal problem ever solve?!



Thursday, March 26, 2009 | 7:41 PM
I'm tired, very tired.

I'm gonna have a breakdown soon. Someone please help my friend. Please. I know I can't take it any longer. Once I lose control of myself, I don't know what I'll do. Maybe go do some bashing up? I don't know.

Went to find SC after school with Joycelyn and Elton. Knocked on the door but no one answered. J called SC's house and her mum answered. Didn't get to go in her house still. D;

Siewchin, I really miss you. I know the hard time that you're having now. What's over is over. No point getting heartbroken over it. I know it's easy for me to say but hard for you to do. I know because I've been through all this too.

Losing someone you love is really painful. I've lost my loved ones too and I've also learned to cherish life. Although you may see that I'm immatured and childish, deep inside my heart I treasure each and every one of my friends.

Even without that boy, there's still us. We'll still be there for you. There'll be me, Joycelyn, Shayne, Elton, Wilson, JianKuo, Feihu, Keane, Uddam and many others that care for you.

I know you're having problems with your family too. You must be damn stress right now. I'm sorry I couldn't do much to lessen that burden of yours. You must be feeling so down right now.

But whatever you do, I hope that you'll be strong. "It's the faith that keeps me going". SiewChin, if I ever pass the faith over to you, will you be strong and keep going forward towards life?

Don't be dishearten. We look forward to your coming back to school. I love you.


Went to look for Elton, then send J home so that she can bathe. Waited in the playground for like half an hour, then she came down. Got to know a new baby child, named Joven. Had been in touch with children lately. I don't know what is happening to me. Fuck.

Went LJS to eat MacDonald's. Okay, I know the sentence is weird. Meaning I went LJS, but I didn't eat their food, but I bought Mac over.

Ate finish and left J and her boyfr there so that they can have some peaceful time studying together. Or else J will keep on complain that I keep make her laugh. Hais.

Went to 433 with E next. Spent some time waiting for Jesse that prince to come down. Played catching with Jesse, China, and Eugene. Fun.

China went home, before she went home, she gave me a drawing. On the little piece of paper, it wrote "LOVE" plus a little heart. So sweet of China. She's just a small lil child but she knows everything about love. I'm really proud of her.

China gave one to Michelle too. So sweet of her isn't it?

Went home after that. Love my friends.



Wednesday, March 25, 2009 | 7:16 PM
SAD, HAPPY.

Siew Chin still hasn't been coming to school. Really hope she'll go school fast or I'll bang her door down and rescue her.

Guess who I saw today when I was going to the toilet to change ? MR.JASON.KANG.

Kay, so Eiksheng(?) was calling me so I turned around. Then I walked to the toilet that time, I heard a guy voice calling out my name. Was like thinking is Mr.Ang, what I saw was another guy!

Got the shock of my life as I couldn't recognise him immediately, I even thought he's some physcho. -.- Hees. XD

Walked over,

JasonKang: GIVAN! :D :D
Me: Blur look*
JasonKang: Hello.
Me: You're Jason jason jason jason jason... ORH JASON KANG!!! HELLO!! XD
JasonKang: Erm, yea.
Me: Come I give you a hug! Evil smile*
JasonKang: back off* No thanks! :D
Me: Bye.

Okay, so that's the short conv we had. Posted it down so that my post will be longer. Haha. Went changed to half-U with Winnie. Then went for NPCC meeting. Only 10 or 14 people went. Aww, so sad man. Lol.

But many of them have reasons, so I guess it's alright. & guess what SIEW CHIN, I got the Improvement Award!! I know if you're there, you'll be happy for me. :P

One more thing, I get to be NCO wor! Those who went survived the 4 day 3 nights camp all got to be NCO. :D

I applied for First Aid and Logistic. Hees. Because I really want to be a First Aider, and Logistics seems easy for me to handle. If I apply for Training, I think I have to work doubly hard le. Haha.

There's this guy I really hate. How how how ?

&, I love you. Muacks.



Tuesday, March 24, 2009 | 9:44 PM
I AM SO SAD. I MISS SIEW CHIN. ):





















Okay, pictures as promised. ^^ Sorry pictures very ugly. -.- My eyes look oh-my-so-small!!! Nvms, more pictures next time. :D

Hais, I MISS SIEW CHIN ALOT!!! D; How how how ? Havent seen her for many days le. I miss her but can I do?

I want her to go school fast. But she don't know when she's coming back. So for now, my friends and I can only continue missing her.

No idea whether Siew Chin will read my this but, just want to tell you girl, we all miss you very much and hope that you'll go back to school ASAP. We miss the cheerful you. D;



Monday, March 23, 2009 | 9:45 PM
BUSY WHEEEEEEEEZY.

Shall blog with pictures tomorrow. Love ya people! :D



Sunday, March 22, 2009 | 3:09 PM
SUCKY SUCK SUCKS SUCKY SUCK SUCKS.

As time goes by, people starts to forget you, forget the things that you've done for them in the past. You walk past them, as if they're just a mere stranger in your eyes. But fact is, you just can't forget them. Face the fact girl, just treat him as rubbish and throw him to the bin. Not worth, not worth, not worth. 'Cause you deserve better.

People, past by my blog if don't mind, please tag yo. Thank you. :D

I love you. Muacks. <3



Saturday, March 21, 2009 | 11:00 PM
BACK.

Yoyo. Hms, went to Baby's house, then slept like one pig. :D :D :D Went to Marina Square had dinner. LOL, his friends all funny sia. -.-

I don't want to laugh also must laugh. Haha. No wonder Baby always say go out with his friends sure mood very happy de. Feel happy for him that he got such friends. ^^

I'm soooooooo in love with Elvis. Oh dear oh dear HOW HOW HOW ?



| 11:25 AM
Recieved a shocking news. Shall post later. Totally no mood now.



Friday, March 20, 2009 | 8:51 PM
Just what have I done, to deserve such friends.

Okay, as you all can see, I've changed my blogskin again. :D This skin is quite simple. But I had a hard time handling it okay!

My blog lack of pictures! Urghhhhhhhhhhh. Will upload pictures once Fifie send me those pictures we took. ^^

Hms, what else should I post about ? Oh yea, found out the guy who beat Keane that time in his school le. Zz.

Terribly sick now. Must be because of camp la. Kaykay, bye people! :D

I love you. Muacks.



Thursday, March 19, 2009 | 10:48 PM
Back from camp.

Oh my oh my, so tired! Came back from a tortorous camp.

Monday, 16/03/2009
First day of camp. Super reluctant to go la! But bo bian. Still have to go, on the way there, keep telling myself to persevere throughout the camp. Haha. I dont know la. So stress la. Reached there, forget what happen also la actually. :/ LOL.

Okay, did some Physical Training. Stomach pain pain. Then saw Abigail doing the squeeze hand thingy. Keep making me laugh. Then my stomach even more pain. Haha. Jump halfway have to stop for a while to laugh at Abigail. LOL!

Then, get to our groups. I'm in team with Kah Hock and Baarath ad four more secOnes. :D They're quite okay la. But abit too quiet. :/ But anyway, had fun with them. ^^

Did field cooking for lunch, have to cook for Baarath first as he's a casualty. Aftermath, cooked for secOnes. Then cook for Kah Hock. Then cooked for myself. ZZZ. Lunch was ok la. Then dont know do what liao. Only can rmb got dontknow how many hours of lectures after that at night. Super tired!

Feel like sleeping, but same thing, keep tell myself to perservere. So drank lots of water to keep myself awake. In the end keep going toilet! -.-!

Slept in the hall @ around 12 plus. Fell asleep once my head touched the ground.

End of DayOne. :D

Tuesday, 17/03/2009

Second day of camp. Woke up at 6 I think. Everyone was rushing when wake up already. Had breakfast as we're going for trekking later on. Bus-ed to HarbourFront. Walked to I forget where liao. ZZZ.

It's a 16 kilometres walk. LOL!

Was quite happy that I can finish the walk without being a casualty AND also not having my athma acting up. Hooray for Givan ?

HOOOOOOORAY !! XD

Okay, reached school, had lunch. No time for wash up, so you can guess how smelly we all were !! :/

Cant what I did later on. Ohoh, I think is camp preparations. So did some camp preparations thingy with my group. Have to keep on shouting at my team so that I can have my voice heard. -.-

Bathed next, as me and Afifah have to bring those parents that are coming to see our campfire to the dont know what room. Brought the parents up le, went to campfire ground.

PROBLEMS!!!!!

Gina Tan vomitted, so there's no emcee. Last minute, Afifah have to take over. Then, MY SECON JUNIORS ALL WENT MISSING. Was panicking with Baarath. Went all over searching for them. Like shit ?! Lost them. !@#$%

After like God knows how long, finally found out that they were all with their parents. LOL!

Did some screaming and shouting, blablabla..........

Conclusion: Campfire was NOT GOOD. Hais. Shall try harder the next time. JIAYOUS MATES! :D

The next thing I'm going to say is about a teacher, but as the school bloody dont allow, I shall keep it to myself then. Can't even express my feelings down here. Let me suffer from depression then.

End of DayTwo. :D

Wednesday, 18/03/2009

Third day of camp. Woke up at 630. WAS LATE!! Kena scolded by WeiLong Sir. Hais. But is really soo... oh nevermind. Went for the lecture at Yosuff Ishak (?). It's a two day course. Sian.

Everyone felt like sleeping there as we all had a tired day. But we all controlled ourself. Except for Ibrahim. Haha, he got caught by the Cadet Inspector! LOL! HAHA! :D

Around 6 plus, reached school. Although SecOnes break camp alr, Afifah they all said that for us, we havent break camp yet.

End of DayThree. :D

Today! :D :D :D

WOOOO! TODAY HAPPY DAY! :D My dad is coming back from his business trip, and I've offically breaked my camp. It's a happy day for everyone in my squad.

So, usually thing, fall in in foyer today. Oh yea, it's DesmondToh's birthday today. We sang a "Happy Birthday Song" for him. It's quite funny, the way we sang it. :D :D

Waited for Mr Peh to reach school, then went to Yosuff again. We had two tests today.

One is Police Knowlegde(PK), and also HomeFront Security(HSF). Slept today. Cant tahan. ZhengWei also! Haha.

Had tests and blabla, went out with Abigail, Gina Tan and AhBear. Went Swensens to eat. Haha. Reached home @ around 9. :D

MY DAD CAME BACK AT 11. HAPPY HAPPY!!! XD Hugged him the moment I saw him. Was like so happy?!?!! I love my family alot alot to the extent that you all can't imagine. ^^

Okay, done with blogging. :B

I love my NPCC friends! Muacks!



Sunday, March 15, 2009 | 9:26 AM
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT. OMGZSXZSXZSXZSX !

I can't believe it. Joycelyn and Afrina snatching with me over Brother? Omg. Been his sister for so long liao, suddenly JOYCELYN WANT SNATCH. Haha. Hilarious isn't it.

For those who don't know, I don't call Feihu "Feihu", I call him "Brother". Not sure why also. Haha.

I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT. I CAN'T CONTINUE TO TYPE ANYMORE. -.-

Brother is a real kind soul, he'll never let me get bullied. Haha. Sometimes he's quite stupid, can see from his actions de la. He love to squeeze my face and rock it front and back. Weird right ?!?! He claims that I'm his only sister in Singapore. Like yea, should I believe? Haha.

No la, I love my brother. Alot. Actually, having so many brothers right, Feihu is one of those that I'm really really close to. :D

He's quite good in Maths, but his English has improved over the time he's been in Singapore. He still goes back to China whenever there's school hols.

Wait, why the hell am I writing about brother?! ZZZ. Whatever, Joycelyn don't snatch okay. Haha. No la, you want snatch jiu snatch lor. I don't mind. Haha.

Camp is just tomorrow. FUCK. I DON'T WANT TO GOOOOOOOO! But sian, it's compulsory. Hais. Hope it'll be fun y'know. Really hope so.

My dad should be on the plane now. I hope that my dad will have a pleasant trip and everything goes on well for him. Dear God please keep him safe.[:

Shall post later. I've loads of things to settle today. Bye people. I love you guys. Muacks. :D



Saturday, March 14, 2009 | 4:45 PM


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! :D

Hey peeps! :D Today's my Mum's birthday.[: Haha. A brief post before I prepare to go out. XD

Kena nag today by my Mum, she nagging halfway I fall asleep! :x Haha. Sorry wor mummy.

I promise you I won't do things to make you angry again, I'll study hard, & most importantly, be a good girl so you and dad will be proud of me! I promise I promise I promise! :D :D

Oh yea, Shane Bro should be in Perth alr by now.. Gonna miss him like siao! D;
ShayneChia is flying to Hongkong today. Takecare of yourself girl.[:
Feihu brother is alr in China for a few days le. Bro COME BACK SOON! ):
Serene is celebrating her birthday today. Too bad I can't come. My mum more impt then you.[:
My DAD FLYING TO CHINA TMR. Papa takecare of yourself. Daughter will listen to mummy in Singapore. Wait, I'll be in camp hor? Haha. Whatever. I love my dad.
I'll be in camp for three days from Monday to Wednesday. Sian!





Okay, got to go prepare le. Bye friends. Those who're overseas, Givan is here thinking of you! :D



Friday, March 13, 2009 | 9:27 PM
Second post of today. BORING DAY !
Haha, I'm sucha good girl today.
I've got such good moral values today you know. ^^
First, I told Benedict, Eddie and Wilson not to vandalise. Then, I gave up my seat in the bus stop to a ang moh 'cause I saw her with a small child. Hehe. Then I went home STRAIGHT and did my homework online!! :D :D :D
See, Givan is sucha good girl today. Praises for me, anyone? XD Lalala.

QUIZ. ^^
1) Think back five months ago, were you single? -Nope.
2) Who can you blame for your bad mood today? -No one.
3) How was your night last night? -Sleeping lor.
4) How do you feel right now? -Feel nothing.
5) Who were the first 2 people you heard this morning? Ang JunWei, my maid.
6) What are you listening to? -Nothing.
7) Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? -Maybe.. ?
8) Last thing you bought? -Seaweed Chicken.
9) Are you a jealous person? -Not sure, maybe no.
10) Does it take a lot to make you cry? -Yea, abit abit also cry. Stupid sia.
11) What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? -In bus stop I think.
12) Think a lot before you sleep? -Yes, unless I too tired.
13) What's running through your mind right now? -How should I reply this question?
14) Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? -Yea, Wilson Goh, JianKuo and many more.
15) Do you like to cuddle/snuggle? -I all also like.
16) Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?-Yes.
17) Do you wish someone would call or text you right now? -Not really.
18) Is your life anything like it was a year ago? -Sort of.
19) How late did you stay up last night? -12 plus.
20) You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it? -Plain water. People who choose alcoholic are stupid people.
21) Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't wish to lose? - Yes. Hais.
22) Who are your favorite people to talk to when you’re down? -See lor, I've got many choices you know. :D
23) Does anyone call you baby? -Yea, many. -.-
24) Are you a patient person? -Sometime yes , sometime no.
25) What is the last thing you said out loud? -Shouting at the teacher, 'cause she just can't seem to hear me at all!
26) Any plans for tomorrow? -A surprise for Mummy perhaps? It's her birthday yo. XD
27) What can't you wait for? -Now, my mum's birthday!
28) Would you go out in public looking like you do right now? -Think no. Maybe yes.
29) What's the worst way to say I love you? -Never to say it at all.
30) Seven weeks from now will you be in a relationship? -I don't know...
31) What do you carry with you at all times? -Hmms...
32) Are you mean? -No, I'm super kind.
33) What holiday is your birthday closest to? -End of year. ^^
34) What's the last thing you searched for on Google? -Molecules. :D


Another 2 hours to MUMMY'S BIRTHDAY! LOVE YOU MUMMY! MUACKS!



| 1:35 PM
Welcome to the Black Parade.

Heh heh heh. :D :D :D

Today is the last day of school. WOOOOO! :D Sian, only one week of hols. But complain for what?

At least got one week right! XD

But this one week to me like no hols like that lor.. :x 'Cause I've got three days of NPCC camp. I'm in the group "SANDY". HAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAA.

Whatever, hope it'll not be so torturous. Although if I pray a thousand times also won't come true. Okay, I just went to Shane Brother's blog. Stupid him, want go Perth stay. Singapore not good meh? So many pretty girls. Somemore he go there the girls also taller then him what. HAHA.

I hope he see this. :D No la, haha. Brother handsome okay.

Anw, when I grow up, I also want go Perth stay! XD Get out of Singapore. And go Perth stay. Just one of my dreams, except that I'm still considering whether I should go anot.

Today is a veryvery irritating day for me, sort of. I owe Aloy 24 punches! ><>And I dont want to care for Benedict bro anymore.Tell him don't vandalise he don't want to listen. Still dare say I very fierce! Fine, next time what you want do is your own problem, I don't want to care about whatever shit you do anymore.

Okay, today also got no NPCC. Yeah man! :D And I'm a good girl that's why never tio Parents' Meeting! :D :D :D

Some bitch just love to stare at me, I wonder why? Gave them electric shock, then they turn away. Can't they learn their lesson!?!? Stop staring la, I know I pretty, but all of you are pretty girls too. So don't need to keep stare at other girls de okay.

Okay, shall repy tags here. ^^ I'll only reply tags in my post for today. As there's simply too many for me to reply in the tagboard. Shall reply in tagboard the next time. & I love my family and friends and YuanCheong. :D :D :D

Hais.

Tag's Reply.
Ivan: Flood me with YOYOYO?! Be careful of your tagboard later. HAHAHA.
Henry: Hey! The class miss you. We'll always be cheering for you, cheer up please! :D
Joycelyn: Yes, move on and don't look back. Easy to say difficult to do. Someone who's with me for one year plus isn't easy for me to forget. ><>
Francis: 2nd tag only? Where's my 3rd tag ? Saw you that day. ^^
Bob: Saiful! haha.
Average Boy: Thanks yo. You're? ^^
Samantha: Haha, yea. Love ya sister.
JiaHao: You reminded me that I saw a rainbow the other day! XD
Limfei: Yea I know who you are. Haha.
Afrina: YuanCheong is worth my tears. ^^ Haha. Love ya babe.
Soon Huat: Okay. I'll cheer up. :D
Desmond: Orh hor, never go school!
MarcusL: Yo bestie, Haha. Once bestie, forever besties. Tio bo? :D
JiaHao: Haha, I online you bo online.
JayChou: I don't think there's a need for me to entertain you.
Leh: Hey, do not judge my friends by how they look. Use your bloody brain to think. IF YOU HAVE ANY. Don't just talk virtually. Add me msn xiiaovan94@hotmail.com Say ppl say until like that.
DM: Please, I go school everyday. Go bang yourself on the wall.
Uncle toby: Lame. I don't recall having a uncle by the name of Toby. Stupid.
Samantha: Yea sis I'm back. :D
JianKuo: This type of people no use de. Only know how to use mouth talk. But no brain.
Hayden: Haha yea Hayden I agree with you! Hello too. ^^
Shane: Link. ^^
Samantha: Sis, thanks. :D :D :D



Thursday, March 12, 2009 | 2:42 PM
PEOPLE! :D
I'm back into blogging. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
In school library blogging now.
'Cause I'm waiting for Wilson to end his school.
Don't wish to waste time, so here I am blogging!
Saw my tagboard just now.
Was like thinking UNCLE TOBY? LEH? DM?
This one even worse, JAYCHOU ?!?!
Come on la Miss/Mr/Mrs/Mdm/ spammer. Now 2009 liao leh.
Spammers outdated alr okay. Say my friend fat somemore.
PLEASE LA! Save that comment for others, or even yourself please!
2009 liao still dont know how to upgrade yourself.
Think you still some kid ar.
& come my blog spam for what? I know you? Or do you know me ?
Tsk.
Such stupid actions are not welcome in my blog y'know.
Urghh whatever, who cares about you? You're just one spammer who is trying to get people's attention. Well, you definitely won't get into my good books. So just stop tagging nonsense in my blog, please? Thank you very much. :D :D :D :D

Okay, so now I cannot blog anything about the teacher and blablabla. Teacher say will take actions and all. Hahahahaha.
So.. SCHOOL IS SO FUN! Whatever, bye people. Gtg wait for Wilson outside his classroom le. ^^



Monday, March 9, 2009 | 6:43 PM
The best I've ever had.

Reached school today, friends were asking how am I. Wilson shook me so hard that my bag strap drop. ._. Shayne kept hugging me, saying that everything will be alright. People stared at me and asked if I'm okay. Really surprised at such attention I'm getting just over a breakup. Haha, but well friends, I'm fine. Thanks. You guys just made my day. :D

Had reading period, after reading period, I told Arvin that I'm a cicvilised person because of I forgot some reasons. What he said shocked me. He looked at me like a goldfish and said that if I'm civilised, the whole world will be civilised too. I was like so shocked?!

Hey, I'm super civilised okay. I don't anyhow say "Go and die la." Hahaha.[:

Went class, had bad stomache pain. Been like this for 3 whole days le!! ><>

Henry looked emo in class today. Henry, a piece of advice from me. Look on the bright side, I'll protect you! :D Uddam super funny today. Forgotten why.

Chinese lesson came and teacher was like keep staring at me 'cause I said "What the Fuck". But I thought teacher is so familiar to hearing me say le. So why he still stare at me? O.o After Chinese lesson, I thought I heard someone say something through the window in Tamil. Was like thinking which person speaking in Tamil till so fast.

Turned and then saw is my own Chinese teacher! My head jitao blank sia. I sat down there thinking, why the hell is my CHINESE teacher speaking to me in TAMIL ?!?!

After a while, I finally made out that he's speaking Chinese. Oh dear, my ears are giving me trouble. ><

English teacher came very fast. Cant blame, typical Singaporeans. :D She was so angry when trying to get us to the computer lab. She said she was so ashamed of my class and told us not to tell others that she's our teacher. With that, she walked away angrily. I was like down there telling the class "Orh hor, another teacher gone. See la! Make her angry." ZZZ.

Talked to Marcus during recess. Maths next, kept going to the toilet. Told teacher I got bladder problem. Eh, I never say lies okay. I really need go toilet, not fake one. But bladder problem is fake one la. .__.

Okay, Biology next. No comments on that subjects. I today got study Bio okay. Next, D&T. Many people pon. Then they say Damien go sabo those people. So tomorrow Damien sure kena whack. Haha.

Slacked with Aloy to wait for JianKuo and Uddam to come. After that, went home. Wtf, the bus very long sia. Saw Wilson in the bus stop. Was like waiting with him for maybe slightly more then half an hour ? Stupid bus. Either is make me late go school in the morning, or is make me late go home in the evening. ZZZ.

Reached home eat, sleep liao. Bored to death le la. Oh yea, before I forget, I've to reply Marcus post. So here it goes :

"ok, let mi tell you what you should do bestie,
1. i'm also touched to have you as my bestie. you have helped mi alot too.
2. all i can say is, i got the rights to takecare of you, you're younger & so called " immature " then mi. thats why.
3. please, do not call mi a great guy, im not that great. you're are a great girlfriend to YC in my mind ok.
4. dont worry, tomorrow i sure go find you during recess. talk to mi all you want, im a listening ear. & if you need, i can borrow you my shoulder, just dont make dirty my uniform.
5. of cause i know your pattern. even i had only known you for less then a year, i think i still understand you more than you understand mi. am i right?
6. you said you dont know why you break with him? oh, com'on, there a reason behind every movement. but whatever it is, once over its over, carry on with your wonderful good life with so many wonderful friends beside you.
7. definitely, you cant forget those memories with him. hey, bestie. 1year leh, not 1day. up & down leh, you think what? stright road ar? so easy go jiu good le. but anyway, you must still try to erase some of those bad memories & keep good memories. cheer up ;D
8. lastly, who says that you are not good for him? you are perfect ok!
From : MarcusL( bestie )"


Same thing, not a word is missing. Bestie, what immature, is I grow up liao you all cant see only! I never do kiddo things liao you know. :D Anyway, you also quite childish what.[:

Hais, why am I a great girlfriend? I seriously don't think I am lor. Do so many things to make him angry. Supposed to be him who's the great guy. Seriously ar Bestie, the next time he got a girlfriend right, I sure happy for him and his girlfriend de. He really very good, too good.

& BESTIE, YOU ARE A GREAT GUY. YOU ARE YOU ARE YOU ARE!! XD

Aiseh, who want dirty your uniform wor. My tears are CLEAN!! HAHAHA. And, you sure you know me better then I know you? Later the other way round I laugh ar. Haha. But seriously, we've known each other for like less than a year, I really wonder how we even became friends. I forget how I know you le leh. .__.

Yes, I really don't know why I break with him. I guess the reason is that I want to be alone. I love him, you should know how much I love him. I mean, people have been telling me that they all can FEEL MY LOVE FOR HIM. Like WOW, even others can feel it. I'll heed your advice and carry on my life with many wonderful friends. :D But one thing for sure is that I believe, one day me and yc sure will patch de. Once I sort it out. I'm sure we will.

I'll keep those best memories I have with him forever. He's still the best that I've ever had. Known in my heart and known to the world.

& COME ON! I'M NOT PERFECT! :D I'll never be a good girlfriend. I've just that low expectations of myself. How to upgrade myself ar ?! Haha. :D

Bestie, three days without your girlfriend will sure be torturous(idk how to spell) for you. I'm sure your girlfriend won't be able to take it too. But believe me, three days will soon be over. Last time me and yc also what. I NPCC, so many camps to attend. In the end we also get it over with. And our feelings also never fade. Believe in yourself and the love that is shared between you two.

Lastly, take good care of yourself. You know what I mean. With your condition like this, please la, don't be that strong anymore. Weak abit for a while won't die de. Just take good care of yourself. Yea, besties forever. :D



Sunday, March 8, 2009 | 2:21 PM
-Edited.

Let that love fly away.

I still don't know what should I say here. I desperately need someone to talk to. Someone. Please.



"NOTHING LAST FOREVER,

dear reader's,
yeah, its true that nothing gonna last forever. but whatever it is, cherish whatever you have now or you regret it in future. maybe some of you guys out there wont be agreeing with mi, but thats how i think. what im posting now its for my bestie, Givan. bestie, i know that you had lots of up & down with yc, you had broke up & patched many times with him. you are in deep love with him. but, one thing is, by doing all these things, do you think that its worth? nah, im not saying that its not worth, anyway, im in no position to say that as well. but if you think that its still worth after the wonderful 1year plus with him, im telling you, you're a great girl. anyway, no matter what happen, you still have a wonderful bestie here that will support you all the way. i know your pattern, in your blog you may say that "this is not a sad post", but in your heart, you are feeling the pain over & over again. so, for everyone's sake, please! cheer up my dear bestie ok? ;D"



Quoted from MarcusBestie's blog. Not even one word is missing. ^^I cried when I see this post. Really reminds me of the times I have with Yc. Bestie, I'm really really touched to have you as my best friend.
You've taken good care of me this few months. As a brother, as a bestie. You gave me advice so I can improve my relationship with Yc. You make me think, so I can do what's right and know my mistake from all my wrongs.

Seriously, you're a great guy and Jasmine is lucky to have you as her boyfriend. I, Givan Lim, will always be there for you. Last long with your girlfriend and Monday if possible, come find me. I really got lots of things to say to you. I need a listening ear and a shoulder. But don't worry, I won't borrow you shoulder. Haha. I'll borrow Joycelyn, Shayne & SiewChin's shoulder.

I'm glad you know my "pattern". Haha. Yea it's true that although my mouth says that "this is not a sad post", deep inside my heart, it really hurts. Bestie, I really don't know why I'll break with him. Seriously I don't. I also want Yc back, but there's something pulling me back.

I can't forget those times I have with him. It's just so memorable. Ups and downs, we've all been through and overcome it together le. But I'm just such a spoiler. Everytime have to make him unhappy. You should know, right?

I'm just not good enough for him. Bestie, tell me what to do? D;


-----edited.
Thanks Marcus, WANGZI*, Joycelyn, AngJunWei, Jiankuo, FRANCIS*, Benedict & Shayne for being there for me. Oh yea and Wilson too, for telling me that he loves slacking in the toilet because of some reasons. -.- HAHA!



Saturday, March 7, 2009 | 9:57 AM
-EDITED POST.


I don't know what to say. I really don't. Lost.Confused.Miserable.

What to do now? My life always revolve around him. Who's gonna book me on a Saturday? Who's gonna play with me when I'm bored? Who's gonna sleep with me when I'm tired? Who's gonna scold me when I do something wrong? Who's gonna be there for me?

One year may be nothing to some couples out there. But for us, it's something we've achieved by using our love. Going through ups and downs. He's became a part of me. No one can take that away.

Although I can't be your girlfriend, I really hope we can still be best friends and keep in contact.

Maybe I'll blog later, maybe not. I just want something that belongs to me back. But I can't.

/THIS IS NOT A SAD POST OKAY.


---Edited---
Happy birthday to HAKIM & JESSLIN. <3



Thursday, March 5, 2009 | 9:49 PM


HAHA LIYANG!! <3








Omg see JianKuo's face. So cute right?!


I look so boy. ._.



Okay, shall continue for today. Erms, went to meet Baby after school. Disaster happened and I was running around Hougang like a mad girl. Baby got super angry and he shouted at me.): But nevermind sorry Baby for making you angry though. :/ Won't happen again. Promise!
So met Baby @ SiewChin's house downstairs and he come liao first thing is !@#$%^&* at me. Aiyo, went to the behind there got one park so slack at there. Went Point 'cause need use toilet. Oh yea he today damn suay bodoh! :D :D :D
He need use toilet 'cause very urgent but so walked to Point(cant run because if run someone will water fountain like that the urine come out. wahaha) and then when reached the Male toilet liao, we saw one sign that said "Cleaning In Progress". Haha! So too bad he cant use the toilet. Was thinking of smuggling him to the Girls' toilet but alot of aunties. Then if later they see Baby jitao scream jiu jialat liao. ><
So tried the handicap toilet, locked. :x After 5 minutes, Baby got to use the toilet so yea, blablabla. Went slack again. Homed then got a shock!! ><
My parents hired someone to paint my whole house. ._. NICE SIA! :D :D :D
Okay got to end here super tired but I see my Baby online RIGHT NOW. ZZZ.



Wednesday, March 4, 2009 | 8:57 PM
Familiar Faces.




























Group photos taken in 433 coming soon tmr, lazy upload liao. :/
Didn't post again yesterday.. Hahaha. :D
Yesterday was a super fun FUN FUNNNN day !
I totally went crazy over a toddler named Jessie(?).
He's like so super duper cute that you'll love him once you set your eyes on him.
He's eyes is so so so big and beautiful that I'm thinking how come I so failure dont have such eyes. ><
Okay talk about today ba later I high. XD
Baby's brother fell down while playing basketball. ><
So many bruises la !):
So, I did a super kind thing for him.
I sent him to the bus stop!! :D
But then hor, send halfway dontknow how to go liao.
So called Baby then finally remembered how to go.
See that little brother go into the bus then I happy. :D
Walked to my bus stop so I can take bus go hougang mall.
Saw my cousin, MeiMei. :D Not Mandy, is JiaHui, issit? :/
Bused to Mall alone, so pathetic right!
Saw Samuel that idiot(opps!) and his girlfriend. :D
Was like thinking who calling me then turned my head and saw them together.
Too bad I rushing for time if not I would have talked to them.):
Did smth in Mall, then bused over to meet Desmond, LiYang, LiangHao and his friends.
Miss those little sunshines of mine. :D
Ate maggi mee at LH's place as too hungry le. Thanks.[:
Stupid LH, ps me, Des and LY.
Got your own friends dont want us liao la.
Walau was like so left out la we all.
Then you down there entertain them dont entertain us.
Whatever la okay. So disappointed in you.
Say sorry also no use liao. You owe me one.):
What's the point of saying sorry? I thought today is supposed to go out with me?
Then you like that. Make us so lonely. ESPECIALLY ME!
You know I hate to be lonely. LiangHao!!!!!!! ):
Hahaha no la, LH next time better treat me, Des and LY better or else I seriously will cut off all relationship with you. :/
Abit too harsh, but.. Hais.
Arnd 5, send Des and LY to their bus stop. Sent them home liao, then walked home myself.
See I so good friend. ^^
Was like alr my house downstairs le, then Lyn called.
Bused down 433 again, reached there first.
Called Marcus then he say he also at 433.
Walked over to Resident's Corner. Talked to Michelle.
Stupid Aloy go slap my neck.
He today very violent bodoh!
First is strangle me in school then now is slap my neck.
Hahaha.
'Cause I strangle him first ma.
Who ask him say I impure! ><
WaiKiat called, talked to him for awhile, then saw Jessie!
Omg he's my favourite boy. :D :D :D
Played with him, then lyn and Jk came.
Slacked then China(Jessie's elder sis) came back from her Kintergarden class.
She so chio lor !!!!
Omg jealous. ><
Went up to Jessie's house played with him.
So cute lor he.
SO LOVEABLE AND ADORABLE !
Homed with Lyn, Jk and Hayden( a new friend I made today).[:
I love my friends! :D
Baby baby baby sorry keep ps you. <3






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